The Day That Has Come Too Soon : Kindergarten Mama

Tonight, I just want to watch her sleep.

Yes, I’ll be a zombie in the morning but somehow it seems to ease the pain. Sure, she’s been to preschool full time for the last year, however this is just “different.”

It starts the beginning of the end. The beginning of 13 years of first days, report cards, lunch boxes, Christmas vacation, friends that will come and go, field trips and defined summers.

As much as I have tried, I am not prepared for this.

Me, the one who is usually “all business”, is a sobbing, snorting, anxious mess. Her daddy seems to be fine and can’t quite understand why I’m such a wreck. Meanwhile Aubrey...she is full of excitement and joy. She’s a “big girl” now.

She doesn’t understand why Mommy is sad. All she knows is that she has a pretty new book bag, some cute new clothes and a bunch of cool school supplies that she can’t wait to use. And that’s how it should be. But one day, she’ll know exactly how Mommy feels.

So tomorrow morning, I’ll pull myself together, take all the obligatory pics and smile knowing she’s happy. I’ll pray for her just as I have since the beginning.

I’ll count my blessings that she is in a place where she is loved and nurtured, not only academically but also in His word.

I’ll remember that this stay at home mom role was one that I longed for and be thankful for the gift of it. And I’ll probably shed a few more tears as I wait on 3 pm for pick up.

Until then, I pray for her these words...

“This is my command. Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
— Joshua 1:9

And this shall sustain us both. ❤️

With Love,

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